2019 Best of Monroe — Dichotomy of Feelings through Transition
Have you ever found that sometimes the best news comes right after you have suffered through some degree of “bummer”?
It’s like you have to get REEEEAL low just before a high so you can experience it in its FULL FORCE.
There is something poetic about the dichotomy of feelings, particularly when we are in transition. So much is unsure, there’s a whole new world ready for you to explore it, and behind you is what was once comfortable and easy, only now it feels stifling.
In my own recent transition, I have spent a lot of time reflecting on how grateful I am to have the opportunity to move forward in my career with two AMAZING new supervisors and practices. The challenging counterpart of which is the constant reminder that I am rebuilding a caseload. Up until the end of July, I had been working in Monroe at a group counseling practice for about 2 years. When the time came for a change, I wanted to brace to dig in, it’s scary out there! Change only asks nicely to be acknowledged so many times before it starts outright DEMANDING that you notice it. I had ignored Change and all of its polite attempts to catch my attention, leaving only the option to start demanding. My time at the practice in Monroe was over. That meant leaving behind all I had known so far, and many clients I had grown so attached to.
Anytime we embark on a new adventure there is a mix of excitement and fear.
In my case, and as with any client-based business, moving to a new location can be a little slow on the uptake. While I am SO down for the challenge, there are some days this transition wears on me. I can’t help but feel like, “But, I’ve done this already!” as I cross my arms, scrunch up my face, and stamp my feet like an irritated toddler. There are some days the road ahead looks smooth and easy, and some days it feels like a scary and mysterious winding path in the dark. You were once so prepared for what was coming at you, things were predictable and simple, even if they didn’t make you happy, you were at least comfortable… enough. Now, things feel like a whirlwind, you can’t see what’s coming next. You’re excited, but frightened, and DEFINITELY not comfortable.
In my life I have learned that the slow and low times are almost always presented to us for a good reason. Sometimes it is needed for reflection, self-care, to prepare for what is around the corner, or even a pity party. For instance, earlier this week I was having one of those down in the dumps kind of days. One of those where if you slow down too much and everything catches up to you and you feel flooded with all that life has been throwing your way. Even so, I gave myself some grace, plowed through (after a good pout and a cry), spent quality time with my family, and put myself to bed early.
The next morning I woke up at the usual time and jumped out of bed (okay, this is an overstatement…. I dragged myself out) and went to wake kids up for school and proceeded to my usual routine of checking emails and other notifications that have piled up since the evening before.
What should I find but an email from the Monroe Award Program officially informing me that I had won the “2019 Best of Monroe Award” in the Counselor category. I reserved my excitement, being the skeptic that I am, and I proceeded to do some research and see if this was even a thing. After some fact-checking, sure enough, this is in fact a REAL thing, and a REAL honor! WOW! That was when the excitement sunk in!
What follows is the “Official Press Release” from the Monroe Award Program:
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
Bethany Kline, MAMFT, APC, NCC Receives 2019 Best of Monroe Award
Monroe Award Program Honors the Achievement
MONROE September 4, 2019 -- Bethany Kline, MAMFT, APC, NCC has been selected for the 2019 Best of Monroe Award in the Counselor category by the Monroe Award Program.
Each year, the Monroe Award Program identifies companies that we believe have achieved exceptional marketing success in their local community and business category. These are local companies that enhance the positive image of small business through service to their customers and our community. These exceptional companies help make the Monroe area a great place to live, work and play.
Various sources of information were gathered and analyzed to choose the winners in each category. The 2019 Monroe Award Program focuses on quality, not quantity. Winners are determined based on the information gathered both internally by the Monroe Award Program and data provided by third parties.
About Monroe Award Program
The Monroe Award Program is an annual awards program honoring the achievements and accomplishments of local businesses throughout the Monroe area. Recognition is given to those companies that have shown the ability to use their best practices and implemented programs to generate competitive advantages and long-term value.
The Monroe Award Program was established to recognize the best of local businesses in our community. Our organization works exclusively with local business owners, trade groups, professional associations and other business advertising and marketing groups. Our mission is to recognize the small business community's contributions to the U.S. economy.
SOURCE: Monroe Award Program
Ummmm, did you read that?!
Even as I copy and paste this, after reading it DOZENS of times I am STILL just. so. tickled! I worked hard in Monroe to be a great counselor and an upstanding member of the community, so to be validated in such a PUBLIC way kind of just ties the bow on top of my time there. It feels like a launch pad, defying gravity where I had once been feeling the weight of moving on, I have been graced with a new sense of pride and tenacity moving into this next chapter.
My time there mattered, I am living my dream, and doing what I love, And now I get to do it in a new place.
I have learned a LOT from this transition, about who I am, who I still want to be, what I am capable of, and to be open to change even when it’s scary. This has been a time filled with mourning as well as excitement, and receiving this news after I had trudged through a crappy day feels like such a gift but most of all it is an encouragement. Being awarded this honor has been the BIGGEST of a number of confirmations I have been receiving since July that I am on track with the life I am meant to have, and the Counselor that I am meant to be. And that is EXCITING.
I don’t know if the mourning is over yet, I take the sad moments of moving on as they come, and remind myself to feel them and then get back on track. I cannot address this enough! Let yourself FEEL what you need to, NOTICE what you need to notice in the overwhelming times where you just feel kind of caught up, if only for an hour, or a few minutes. And the counterpart that is JUST AS IMPORTANT is to always remember to peel your heart up off the floor and get back to living.